Is the glass half empty or is it really half full…………….

robin           Robin Williams was a brilliant, caring and loving man. A man that to most, was looked at as being funny with all the comedies he has acted in.  As Robin Williams made us all laugh for as long as he did, he was hiding a huge part of himself deep within his sole and that part was eating him from the inside out. Depression…… A word we don’t truly understand fully, as this word affects us in many different ways. Most people think that when you are depressed, your supposed to be all alone, your crying a lot,  always sad and almost never smile at anything. The true fact of depression is, you can function and externally carry on like nothing is wrong when you are around others, but when you are in the safe zone of your house Depression will then hit you very hard, you will have many thoughts roam within your head, but none more than the thought of, I don’t want to walk this path of this journey of life anymore.

Depression is the real true silent Killer, it will eat you alive from the inside out, depression will strip us from having true feelings and rob us from our true emotions. A lot of times Depression is triggered by a tragic event that may happen to us, we get lost within the clouds of our thoughts and as we are lost, we then move forward without showing to others around us, that we are troubled and don’t want to show weakness, as we think others will think of us as  lesser. When Deep Depression hits we will do and try anything, to not let it show to others around us, even though our feelings and emotions are not truly protecting us like they would when we are truly healthy. Through deep Depression we don’t truly acknowledge what is happening to us, we bury deep within our souls our true feelings and emotions, so we can function and move forward, as normal as we think normal is.

Shame is a big word right next to the word Depression. when we are full of shame we then become someone we truly are not, when we are shamed we lose our true feelings and emotions, we lose a huge piece of who we are and we hide within ourselves, to try to protect ourselves from further pain and shame. Depression and shame are like faith and hope, You need to have faith so you can have any hope, as you are shamed first which brings out the Depression. But!!! when you are shamed and depressed, you have no idea how to have faith, which leaves no hope in your future.

When we are depressed we don’t want anything to do with anybody, we want to be alone with no one around, basically we want to curl up in a ball and roll away from everybody around us. Then when we do go out and about within Society, we will with a fake self, as our true self is hidden deep within our core, to further protect ourselves from further harm, shame, pain and hurt. Depression will have us question ourselves and why do I feel this way? We won’t even see the glass as half empty or full, as it is only a glass in which to drink whatever is in the glass.

Robin Williams was a very funny Man and could also play the serious role just as good as the comedy role, he wanted to make us all laugh because, he was hurting very deeply inside with Depression and he hid it well from all of us, for which he made laugh everyday, this was his way of not acknowledging this sickness of Depression, hiding his pain so he can try to move forward as normal as he thought normal was. There are a lot of other People out there like Robin Williams, we don’t hear from them much, cause they are not only hiding from us, they are also hiding from themselves as well. In order to be able to help ourselves and those around us, we need to be able to better understand Depression and the many ways it can affect us, so we all can walk our paths along this journey of life, as healthy and happy as we possibly can.

” Depression is a sneaky little Illness that will take you over before you least expect it”

” Robin Williams the funny man……but deep within his core he was more troubled than he was funny”

” Shame…Depression…Faith…Hope, these are all words….but these words are more powerful than we really give them credit for, cause we don’t truly understand them”

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